About kenny645

Hello,i feel so empty writing this right now,for i have always been able to make do in life even when dealt bad situations...But now i feel i am up against a wall i can't get over and i have two beautifull children,that when i look in their faces i just know i must find a way somehow...I live in a rural america town where jobs are slim and the pay for jobs is even slimmer...I got divorced about seven years ago and at that time i changed jobs and began travelling for employment opportunities to best support my children,whom thru all of the travelling i always seen on weekends...Well last year i decided that i needed to be around more for them and moved back home where i took a reasonable paying local construction job and began my life with them being around much more often...All was fine for the moment,untill here recently when my children called me and said they needed to move in with me for their mother did not want them anymore...Needless to say they were devestated as was i to see them in such hurt from the going ons that lead to this decision by her to just all of a sudden not care for their well being anymore...Well as most decent fathers would do i opened my arms widely and said come ahaead i will gladly be there for you...I was then and am still currently on my winter lay off due to weather,i was not for sure how i was going to do this with my finances at the time,but knew i had to find some way...I live in a small one bedroom apartment and knew for a short time we could manage here untill i got back to work and would have the finances to better accommidate our situation...Well here it has been three months now and my unemployment benifits barely covers my utilities and rent and i have went to the the welfare department and recieved some food assistance help,but all else has just kept getting further behind than they already were due to some bad decisions and judgements on my part the past couple of years...I need some help desperately,my bills are piling up,my ex is not helping with any support,nor with any transportation of my children whom are teenagers with good grades in school and involved in alot of school functions...My vehicle has over 200,000 miles on it and has numurous problems that need fixed at the moment,my phone rings off the hook all day with bill collectors and i feel that before long i am going beyond a point of no return...I have been constant looking for work in the area to help untill my company goes back to work,but with the economy in the status it is and the weather not cooperating i am really scared that soon i will be in a situation of being homeless with two children and i just do not know what to do...My total debts don't exceed $10,000 dollars,i do have a job but my credit is just destoyed and i have two children depending on me to find an answer and provide them with a future and i am just not for sure how to do this...I know if i could arrange a loan to put my financial status back to good that i could maintain a better life for us,for i am not lazy and i have always worked since the graduation of high school...I am not looking for charity and i do want to make my own way in life thru my own credits,but with the situation happening the way it did and all i do not feel i am able to make this work without some kind of assistance somehow...I am terribly depressed from the worring for my kids well being and not having the answer's to see a light at the end of the tunnel...I know i am not that far away from a better life,i am just not sure how to get there...I will greatly appreciate any help,or support that may help me thru this situaion whether it be mentally,or physically...